it was real cloudy this morning when i woke up… ‘guess the sky’s symphatizing with me… got up early coz i got some job to do at this holy place called darong… hmmm… sk life gets so boring and tiresome each day… i wanna break free from all responsibilities that i frustratingly try to accomplish, not to mention the support that’s getting fewer and fewer… when i started, i was this super-extra-positive girl, so idealistic and just eager to change how politics work in the country… but five years have passed and everything is still fucked up… i’m a waste… my position is wasted… i just feel so damned… it’s so hard to reach out to every young people in our community… we are like separated by a mile-thick brick wall… i feel so ashamed and useless… i want to escape… 

now, seeing how the elections get dirtier each passing day, i just want to grab a baby armalite and poke it on the foreheads of those filthy candidates parading like gay beauty queens on the road. i hate them. they make a goddamned country more goddamned.

so i was sitting outside the community hall this afternoon, and people were coming and going like ants looking for food. literally. i hear them saying,"naay bugas ipanghatag si tooot?", "pila ang hatag ni tooot?", "kanus-a man manghatag si tooot?"… haaay… it’s a reality… like a 500-year-old reality… it’s deeply-rooted in filipino history…  if i react negatively, they’d sure say: "karon pa ka? dili na ni bag-o day!"

so it’s obvious… we are forever GODDAMNED! 

this will be my first time to vote and i want to make a good choice… the bad part is that i personally don’t know the candidates… i don’t even want to sit 50 meters near them so how can i? there’s a lot of walking tupperware around… well, i don’t know if orocan is thicker or more durable, but who cares? the point is, they’re all plastic… well, knowing a politician and being one myself, they just have to… i understand that, it’s a politician thing… you can’t really tell a good leader from a bad one just by shaking hands with them… it’s simply stupid… if they invite you to their rallies, the major reason you’d go would be for free snacks and live entertainment (i.e. yoyoy songs, boomtarat dance, sexbomb-like performers etc.)… it’s so hard to determine who’s who… i think the best way would be to play it by ear… listen to ordinary people and find out how they describe candidates through their own personal encounters… 

i’m helpless so i can only watch people get fooled or fool others by luring them to join their bandwagon… politics in the country is a hopeless case… i know i can only whine… so ill just keep on whining… WAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAH~~~~~~!!!!!